I am tired.
I am tired of fighting against the current.
I am tired of trying.
It seems like I get on the right path and everything around me is against me.
Things go wrong.
Things get canceled.
I get sick.
Stupid, pointless arguments happen.
I feel this heavy darkness creeping around me.
I am so sick of it.
It has gotten to the point that I just don’t have the strength to move forward anymore.
Thoughts of just giving in dance in my head.
But If I do, if I give satin the satisfaction, I feel awful.
And if I don’t give in…if I keep going, I get nothing but resistance.
Nothing seems to give.
It’s one blatant attack after another.
I can’t keep on going like this.
I just can’t.