This song was on the radio this morning. I’ve heard it many times before but never really listened to it. Mandisa really isn’t my style of music, but today, right now, it applies to my life. I wanted to post it because I know that I am not the only one going through something today.
If you are struggling today, know that you are not alone. God is with you. You, yes you who is reading this right now, God loves you. He wants you to seek him, trust him, lean on him.
I know how hard it can be to just get up in the morning. It seems hopeless. But It will get better. Trust in Him who made you, knows you, loves you.
Dear Lord, please bless all those who read this post today. You know what they are going through. You know their struggles. Please wrap your loving arms around them. Let them know that you are there waiting for them to reach out to You. In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.
The images didn’t reflect in your eyes.
Your face was completely innocent,
and so was your voice.
I never saw it coming.
I guess I forgot how much of a struggle it was.
It never left?
How could I have been so naive?
Now, no matter what you say,
“It’s not your fault”
I can’t help but see my short-comings that could have led you down that path again.
I’m so sorry if my neglect has caused this.
Sometimes I lose my head,
but I guess the trust we once had is gone…
Not like the lies swept under the carpet.
I trusted you…was I wrong too?
It baffles me how this could have gone on for so long.
I was cleaning my house, it wasn’t the house I have in real life, and I stumbled upon an office that we had somehow forgotten we had. It was almost like it had magically appeared.
It was a very nice sized room, large and fully furnished. The room was quiet and “off the beaten path” of the rest of the house. It had carpet, a couch, tv, computer, and desk. Upon entering the room I also saw that it had a bathroom. It was like my own little oasis. A perfect place to take a few “mommy moments”.
I closed the door to keep it hidden. Later when my husband was home I told him about it and he said “Oh yeah. I forgot about that room.” How did we forget about such a wonderful place in our own home? All those times I needed a break. A little escape. Some bathroom time with out an audience, and I had a secret place the whole time and never knew it.